After being a pastor for a few years, I began to realize that I had several addictions to “good” things and that these addictions were destroying me from the inside out.
Perhaps most fundamentally, I am addicted to acknowledgement from others. I desperately want to be seen as valuable or important by others. Sprouting off from this central addiction like crab grass shoots are addictions to perfection(ism), success, and work.
Overworking and overvaluing work in my psyche led me into a mild, long-lasting depression. Over the past decade, I’ve slowly been unpacking and recalibrating my inner world to think of work, success, approval, and grace in healthier ways. This has been a messy up-and-down process, but the fruit is a more peaceful, more relaxed, much healthier life (and family).