Retro Poem #17: Nothing Words


That was a nothing voice
That spoke in a nothing way
When it spoke to me about holiness.
They were nothing words 
Because I did not believe
I did not believe it was possible 
To live the kind of life
They proclaimed.
I had tried and failed.
I did not believe.
My experience taught me otherwise.
That was a nothing voice
That spoke in a nothing way
Because I did not believe.
I closed my ears
And embittered my heart
When they spoke in nothing words
A doctrine of holiness.
I did not believe.
My experience taught me otherwise.

But God will prove his person
To those who seek his face.
In his something way,
He found a path around 
My nothing walls
And slowly peeked His 
Holy light into my heart
And showed me His holy face.
In his something way,
He has removed my bitterness
And replaced it with passion,
Longing to be holy
Because of my holy God,
Who is Holy Love.
I stand longing yet resting,
Resting in what I have in Christ,
Who I have in Christ.
He in me, and I in him,
He is my life, my peace, my holiness.
God, in his something way,
Has moved me from bitterness, 
     to longing, to rest.
We serve a something God
Who dissolves our nothing walls
If we seek his face.

Written in 1998